what have i gotten myself into?

I decided that I want to try out for the All-State Senior Jazz Band. Not for bass, but alto saxophone. Looking at this years requirements, I'm realizing that it is going to be very difficult. Molto difficile, as I say all the time. I hope it will work out though. I need to work on my improv, tone, learn scales, and just regain all my saxophone ability, I suppose. I was decent at it, even good, though I'm not the best judge.

I want to try out for the Senior Orchestra as well, for bass. That way if I didn't make the Jazz Band, I would hopefully still make orchestra.

Okay, dilemma:
may 6 = the fall of troy, the dear hunter + two bands I haven't heard of in new haven
may 8 = the classic crime, sksk + aiden in new haven

I am not going to get parental permission to go to both of these. I know it. But aghhhhh. Choosing which one to go to is difficult. I might not be able to go on the 6th anyway because it is a tuesday. =|

ugh

I think it is not fun at all to tune the E string on a bass down to D.
It's strung in fourths, leave it that way gosh darn it.
This is my main excuse for not bothering to learn ETID bass lines.
And I just don't like it.

edit: i hope i'm right about the fourths things because i mix it up a lot.

=( + =]

by the time i get these, everyone i know will have a pair. =(


but i'm going to get these, and as far as i know, no one i know has plans to get them. =]

NEXT YEAR

I am going to Bamboozle. For sure. I don't have a ride this year. And even if I managed to find a ride at this point, I don't have the money. So next year I will be able to drive myself and afford a two-day pass, hopefully. I think there is a good chance. =)

I can't go to Warped this year because I will be working. But I really want to see LoveHateHero in April. But I'm hopefully going to see the Classic Crime, SKSK, etc. soon after in May. So I don't know if I'll have parental permission. And I need someone to go with. =|

I'm ridiculous.

what i love

i made a facebook group for the british band You Me At Six a while ago because I couldn't find any groups for them. And for the next few months there weren't. Now there are no less than 12 groups about the band. Facebook is really lame sometimes. I hate it.

procrastination fascination

You know what I think about a lot? How much I care about other people. Not about how much they care about how I look. But just like, caring. You know? Like oh, I hope they're doing alright, I hope they feel better...etc. This extends to basically acquaintances. Sort of.
=| I should be writing an english paper right now. Arghhh.

avoidance.

I haven't really written in a long time. Here or in my notebook (which I prefer). Honestly, I'm really trying to avoid everything that's happening right now. Some things are perfectly alright, really good even, in some cases, but some stuff is just stressing me out. It's lame. I use the word 'lame' so much these days. I'm not even sure who I know that says that. Probably no one.

Outside the wind is howling. Or exhaling very loudly. It's more of a roar than that thin reedy sound of wind whistling through trees.

Today I went with my mom to pick up my brother and his friend from their soccer games, and the way up it rained. One the way home, it poured. The wind was incredible. It was probably some of the worst rain I've seen. [That may or may not be an exaggeration, because at the time the rain was pretty intense.] Anyway, the weather today was awful.

I'm learning how to drive (finally!). Yesterday I watched the Bourne Ultimatum and today I watched the Bourne Supremacy (out of order, I know) and what they have taught me about driving is this: potentially, you can go through a vicious road chase, escape the police and get the person chasing you killed, all without doing much/any damage to your own body.

Personally, I don't think there are enough overpasses or construction sites here for me to do that.

eh.

Listening to Angels and Airwaves makes me feel so weird. I haven't really listened to them much, but I've heard "Secret Crowds" on the radio a few times recently and decided to listen to their first album. I just feel like I'm listening to Blink-182, but a little more mellow. Obviously I know the reason for this, but it just... is so odd.